May 2008
Je ne comprends pas. J’ai baisé en haut, j’ai voulu faire l’améliorer, je veux cet être sur et comment c’était. J’essayais juste d’aider malgré comment il peut sembler. Je vous aime vraiment… Je veux dépenser la vie avec vous. Je veux que tout vous ayez su… cher dieu, s’il vous plaît l’aide
The hill seems less steep
Talked with a different Eric today, and well I think he at least respected my position, and somewhat understood, and open mind is key to be a Christian… hopefully others will be as such one can only hope
Oedipus
I’m the king’s thirty-second son Born to him a thirty-second time Born to him with my hair still on Born to him with two eyebrows on And that’s all i was wearing When i woke up staring at the world My mom had been a rather crazy queen But not at all like sex machine She liked to keep her body clean clean Thought the world to be quite obscene But she’d retire to...
DONE TRANSFERING
I am done moving all my old blog posts from my old blog. so everything hence forth will be new
Uphill battle
I have a long way to go in my movement for gay equality in th church… I thought people would be more open minded… but I am finding it to not be so… sigh, even my closer friends, who I thought weren’t like the other Christians full of bigorty I am probably going to go crazy after during this… What hurt the most is… and I mean really hurt… my heart sunk...
“Because, it’s not the life you’re supposed to have. The life...”
Going to a Town
I’m going to a town that has already been burnt down I’m going to a place that has already been disgraced I’m gonna see some folks who have already been let down I’m so tired of America I’m gonna make it up for all of the Sunday Times I’m gonna make it up for all of the nursery rhymes They never really seem to want to tell...
“Hang in there kiddo”
– Grandpa
Guilty Pleasures
Guilty Pleasures Sex and the City Desperate Housewives True Life Tila Tequila Real World MTV and VH1 in general Laguna Beach Cher Mariah Vanessa Carlton Cascada Mean Girls Myspace Chocolate Peanut Butter Rainy Days Shopping Being a Bitch Buddhism
“There are times when the end justifies the means. But when you build an argument...”
– The end justifies the means
Political Views
Political Views Your true political self: You are a Social Liberal (60% permissive) and an… Economic Liberal (16% permissive) You are best described as a: Socialist You exhibit a very well-developed sense of Right and Wrong and believe in economic fairness.
“And I was just amazed because it looked like this mass of dots, and none of it...”
– Latter Days
Am I a Heretic?
Am I a Heretic? Well, simply put, yes. To expound upon that, a heretic is someone who disagrees and speaks openly against the current orthodox and doctrine. A heretic is different than an atheist. Atheist do not believe in God, while a Heretic is a religious person with different beliefs than mainstream religion. Is heresy bad? I would say there is definitively hurtful teachings out...
Homophobia
Homophobia A realization of recent events and enlightenment’s: A common issue many “Christians” like to gather and crusade against is the rights of homosexuals and generally homosexuality. But if you really think about it, to be against homoesexuals and openly talk down to them and about them and their lifestlye…it seems a lot like condemnation to me. Hmm, but...
Ima
Ima Mess I haven’t eaten for days My thoughts are flying my mood is flucuating I cannot decide what to do I want to be with people But I want to be alone I am alone It is my spring break I need to leave, I need a new atmosphere I need something I feel on the edge of a revelation Hope is all
Entry for March 05, 2008
Where is the hand Where is the ethereal embrace I await it The soft breath in my ear A frail breeze through my hair A feeling I look out to the horizon Where is the horse and the Rider Where is the saving grace The felt hello I am accustomed
Lead, Follow, Self
This is a response I started to a friends blog, I liked how it was going so I posted and expanded it here I wish I could practice that…I use to be as well mannered and kind as you are, but I have become coarse and rigid in a lot of area’s and I will generally just say what I want to who I want, regardless of what the outcome may be… but the problem with that is I...
Dreams lately
Many of them have been quite violent. There are always groups of people with guns shooting around or with explosives blowing stuff up. And some ther has been vampires, and some have dinosuars. Also I have driving my car poorly, always almost hitting things or my seat will close up or move as I drive. Another me and Gabby were driving around in a boat. All of these dreams have been...
Some beliefs
I do not believe that you can be rich and be a Christian, people try to justify it, but you just can’t, if God “grants” you money, give it away. It is one of Jesus’ main topics… the rich cannot enter heaven, this is an area I do not see much gray in. If I feel like I have too much money, too many possesions, then the rich should also realize they have...
Movies I own, Movies I want:
Movies I own 1. Star wars (ep 1-6) **** 2. Lord of the Rings (Fotr, TTT, Rotk) ***** 3. Pan’s Labyrinth ***** 4. Chronicles of Narnia **** 5. V for Vendetta **** 6. Red Dragon *** 7. Zoolander *** 8. Saw **** 9. Saw 2 **** 10. Phantom of the opera **** 11. The producers **** ...
Entry for February 10, 2008
The Hunter’s kiss, the vampires dessert the boy was hung from the tree as the town encouraged he was flogged throughout the day by the victims indicants. Loud speakers resounded through out the village calling all to come to the execution. The boy was stabbed by the brother of one of his late victims. By days end nearly all the town had come to pay their view and respects to...
I am
I am an awkward person…if I dont feel like someone is comfortable with me…I become to cautious yet open, so hugs can be wierd. I am still awkward with people I do feel like are comfortable with me…but ya…. I give people looks, wierd, happy whatever…I dont know why, but I do… I am a touchy person, I never go to far, to mee at least, but if I flip...
“Don’t change for other people, make other people change for you” “Don’t change to fit into other people’s needs, make other people cahnge to fit yours” One of the more bitchy things I have said…. I dont really believe it, but I do think if you are a pushover you should try it, it can help you to stand up
“Now is my soul troubled; and what shall I say? Father, save me from this hour....”
– John 12:27-28
Love a Storm
I love the feeling of a storm brewing…something about the wind starting to blow and the sky becoming dark… the power of it all awe
Mr. Edward Magorium: I fell so completely in love with these shoes, I bought enough pairs to last my whole lifetime. This is my last pair.
Eric Applebaum, the Hat Collector: All stories, even the ones we love, must eventually come to an end and when they do, it's only an opportunity for another story to begin.
Molly Mahoney: Are you dying?
Mr. Edward Magorium: Light bulbs die, my dear. I am departing.
Mr. Edward Magorium: Your life is an occasion, rise to it.
Apres Moi le Orage
A storms conjures in the north The mouth will open and all will disaster will ensue Some will be lost others made a new Decisions will be futile Plans will rectified A storm approaches at the exhale of the lung and the vibration of a cord Apres Moi le Orage After me comes the Storm
Eternal Monday
I feel like I have been one long Monday, before that I was Sunday, but now I feel Tuesday peeking around the corner and finally I can leave this Monday behind. The twenty-first hour approaches and all is nigh in my anticipation for the next day in my life.
“Stop, please stop!” Screams echoed through out the room as shards of glass and debris floated through the air. The lights flashed as the panicked man began to levitate from the ground. “I am sorry, I didn‘t mean it!” A whirlwind of chaos ran through out the building as everything from the foundation up began to go astray. Tiles uprooted. Furniture began to fly roofing began to fall to the...
Entry for January 13, 2008
idontwanttogetyourhopesup butialsodontwanttogetyouhopesdown sojustkeepsomehopes
Mean Girls
Janis: Gretchen Wieners knows everybody's business, she knows everything about everyone.
Damian: That's why her hair is so big, it's full of secrets.
Damian: She's fabulous, but she's evil.
Karen: I can't go out.
[fakes cough]
Karen: I'm sick.
Regina: Boo, you whore.
Cady: Um, is there alcohol in this?
Mrs. George: Oh, God, honey, no! What kind of mother do you think I am? Why, do you want a little bit? Because if you're going to drink I'd rather you do it in the house.
Karen: If you're from Africa, why are you white?
Gretchen: Oh my God, Karen, you can't just ask people why they're white.
Cady: You're not stupid, Karen.
Karen: No, I am actually. I'm failing almost everything!
Cady: Well... there must be something you're good at.
Karen: I can stick my whole fist in my mouth! Wanna see?
Cady: No no no... Anything else?
Karen: Well... I'm kinda psychic. I have a fifth sense.
Cady: What do you mean?
Karen: It's like I have ESPN or something. My breasts can always tell when it's going to rain.
Cady: Really? That's amazing.
Karen: Well... they can tell when it's raining.
Coach Carr: Don't have sex, because you will get pregnant and die! Don't have sex in the missionary position, don't have sex standing up, just don't do it, OK, promise? OK, now everybody take some rubbers.
Cady: Why would she do that?
Janis: 'Cause she's a life ruiner. She ruins people's lives.
Cady: Wow. Your house is really nice.
Regina: I know, right?
Gretchen: Make sure you check out her mom's boob job. They're hard as rocks.
Crying Girl: [reading from paper] I wish we could all get along like we used to in middle school... I wish I could bake a cake filled with rainbows and smiles and everyone would eat and be happy...
[about to cry]
Damian: [shouting from back] She doesn't even go here!
Ms. Norbury: Do you even go to this school?
Crying Girl: No... I just have a lot of feelings...
Ms. Norbury: Ok go home...
[girl walks off stage]
Ms. Norbury: Next!
learning
learning I am teaching myself to be ambidextrous and to mirror write…it is hard…but I will get it down
New years Revolutions
Stop being depressed I am not sure why I am sad most of the time, but I just am. I want to be moderately happy by next year. Stop cursing Though I don’t find cursing to be a “sin” and I do not think any less of anyone who does curse, I just would rather not do so, so much anymore. Find God I more so want to achieve a love for God, a passion, which I don’t...
“Meaningless! Meaningless!”
says the Teacher.
“Utterly...”
– BIble
Mon Ami
When futility decends and all is naught As anxiety acsends and I lose all thought All I have is Friends Which still cause distraught Sacre Bleu unto you
Target L ve
Despite working a 12 hour day…I feel incredibly happy, and I think that is because of the people I work with. They make me so happy…so many different types of people that wouldn’t other wise be hanging out. And though 1 o’clock rolls around, we still find stuff to laugh about. We reminisce on old times, funny events in the past, people who use to work...
Ode of a Shower
love the showers. love the feeling. Standing there dry In the bare, so vurnerable, Yet bold and anticipating. Turning on the water, pulling the nob I look down, in those moments before The cold crisp water shots from the head That initiating noise that I long for. My toes cringe and crinkle as the brisk water hits my hair But I stand still waiting for the warmth to follow. That...
I Am Legend (spoilers)
Lackluster….is all I can say The first 30 minutes are great, showing the futility of life, the repetition of a day with out anyone around in a beautiful post-apocalyptic Manhattan. Little is mentions of the “night-stalkers” so their mystery is shrouded and makes them far more scary than the end result. After you first see the infected in the daylight, you loose all...
Most Important, Most Hurt
By:Me Why do the best things always turn sour. What brings me joy, turns to sorrow. My strength, becomes my bain Minutes turn to hours, hours to days, days to weeks, weeks to months, months to years. And still I will wait Wait for what use to be. I reach for the light, always looking forward, never looking back. I am not talking superficial, but something real something tangible....
In response to myself
If you have read my previous post “Done with life”, then continue reading, if you have not, go read it then read this. I am still very upset…and confused… but I was , in the moment, caught up in things, Things are not as futile as I made them seem. Not to say those thoughts were wrong, I still believe every word I typed in that post. But my feelings are not...
Done with Life
Done with Life I don’t understand…. I lost Kristy…it was hard, but I still could see that God was trying to do something, teach me a lesson etc. My mom’s friend from the market died…ok, getting a bit repeditive… a bit much to handle Then Jennie….I just didn’t get it then…3 people in less than 2 months. why would a god who loves us...
RIP Courtney Nicely
RIP Courtney Nicely somebody please tell me what am I suppose to do? you’ve died and I’m here thinking that I hear your voice, but it’s somebody else it’s always somebody else why did you die? don’t leave me please I beg you God tonight bring me peace I’ll never sleep without the dreams of you alive here with me, alive here with me the brightness...
Rest In Peace to all.... but As it must go...
Rest In Peace to all…. but As it must go… The show must go on Outside the dawn is breaking On the stage that holds Our final destiny The show must go on ~~~ The show must and forever continue The show of life for all to bear witness The show to all that we are going to carry on I will yet again dawn my mask in the hours of the early dew The mask of a sly smile of a...
Some things 1. I have minor OCD with organization of mi nut things 2. I have been depressed for the majority of the last 5 years and I am not sure why 3. I have a great friend…he means the world to me 4. I will never not be able to believe the is no God, no matter what happens and how hard I try 5. I am a very open person with a very open mind, 6. I have a minor addiction to...
Mr.Magorium's Wonder Emporium
It was just that, Wonderful. It is the…only quality movie that is Rated G that I have ever seen, and is just a very good movie in general. It was witty Cute Funny Emotional and Quirky Natalie Portman and Dustin Hoffman did a spectacular job, and the accountant (counting mutant) and the boy actor were superb as well. It is my favorite movie of the season and perhaps the year....
